Saturday, November 23, 2013

Ruis Collection: Modern Princess

Today, I'd like to share with you a China-based fashion label that I've been following for quiet a while now, Ruis Collection. If you like browsing for kawaii fashion in Pinterest or in Tumblr, then these photos might look familiar yo you.

My fascination to anything princessy and doll-like was never a secret as a former lifestyle lolita. Ruis Collection perfectly described my definition of what a lolita would look like outside lolita. Their pieces are usually light both in color and material thus making it fit for warmer climates and the designs are usually of fair amount of cute, dainty and elegant that is very wearable.

But before anyone lose their frills, keep in mind that this is a Taobao shop. Quality will always be a hit or miss if you plan to get yourself some of their pieces. Their photoshoots are amazing though. I wish we have studios like that here in Manila.

Above are the photos of my personal picks. Enjoy!

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Beautiful chaos

It's 7:01 in the morning today and I really have no plans to write in this blog for the past hour. The sugar of my life: my partner and my dog are still in slumberland. I just really have to write this out for the hope I could somehow transfer what I feel right now in this space and leave it here so I could go about my life for the rest of the day. They say if you're upset, you can always choose to not feel upset. It's easier to say that when you're not in the situation for it takes strength and character to be able to do that. I always believed I am a strong person because that is what I need to be with the circumstances that life has laid out on me but there are moments I just want to just breakdown and cry and just be weak for an hour or two. That's what I'm doing right now.. Letting all the pain and disgust sink in..feeling every inch of it so tomorrow it won't hurt that much anymore.

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.
― C.S. Lewis

They say that if you practice love for others, you will live a life full of love too. Apparently, that is a case to case scenario. Not all people are willing to care genuinely. I am writing to point out my mistake of not loving myself first before I take care of others. And now that this person I cared for stepped upon me for a sum of money she never had before, I feel scammed not only with my wasted resources but also with my trust. I paused quiet a few of my goals and dreams for her and this? Betrayal at it's finest. I forgot I had needs too but I trusted so much that this person will be there too when it's my turn to ask but no. For the first time in my life, I proved that money truly change some people - especially if that money wasn't even hard earned in the first place. It makes people proud and delusional. And it's the lowest of the low and that what makes me feel sick. Worst is, people like these would complain when you finally decided to retaliate. I was betrayed and scammed. How do you want me to feel?

But now, I just want to clarify a few things: Once is enough. I have a child to bear and raise and I choose not to make the same mistake again for the sake of my baby. Would I pause my goals and dreams for my child? No. Five years from now, what matters is the quality of life I can provide for my child. So even though it's heart breaking at some point, it's a lesson to learn. Again, one mistake is enough. I will never be distracted with my goals again. Thanks for this experience.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Visual Music Carnival: Harajuku Fashion Walk photos

Better late than never! Haha.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Lace Jinx

Hi again! I'm on the second trimester of my pregnancy now and it's kind of putting a temporary halt on my dressing up lifestyle. I feel exhausted all the time as to I also work full time for my label, Dorotee Sweetlips. But I am trying not to let go just yet and cope with the changes in my body. I know I'm going to be a lot more busier when I delivered my baby.

I was trying to have some rest earlier this morning but I can't sleep so I decided to finally shoot a look. It's kinda half-assed, really, for I got tired in the middle of assembling my backdrop and setting up the camera so I just chose one of my favorite dress and mix-n-matched accessories along the way. I haven't dressed up genuinely for quiet some time now and I found myself looking at my stuff and feel kind of outdated. I even forgot where I put some of my things like shoes, contact lenses etc. Well, I hope now that the drive I had today would come visit me more often so I can produce better results. I have to admit that blogging, aside from being a designer, has helped me a lot in my independent life. It's one of the reasons why I have a roof in my head and bread in my table. It came to me that I can't just let it go amidst the lifestyle change.

Labyrinth Garden lace dress | Lunatrinks bodychain | socks, cross necklace, spikes headband used as choker, skeleton clips, skeleton bracelet from Dorotee Sweetlips

I'm not happy with my make-up too for I haven't updated my make up kit as well. I lack essential items like concealers, eyeshadows etc. My skin is not in it's best condition too. I just groomed my eyebrows but not really shaped it because I just don't know what to do. I realized I haven't taken care of myself for quiet a while. It's not a secret in my Facebook profile that I'm currently hooked in a MOBA game called, League of Legends and now it appears to me it's taking away the fountain of my youth. haha. I can't help it though, I share the addiction with my partner and it's one of our fun-time. There there, at least I got to look at myself in the mirror again and finally gave a damn. I'll try to catch up and give myself moar love surely.

Anyone miss my lolita looks? I'll try to put together a few looks on my next posts. See ya!